So as most of my dear readers already know, this is my last year of high school ( I know, i'm completely thrilled yet sad) I've been going through myriads of happy endings and though some did not end the way I expected them to I have no regrets.

While Im typing this, my gut is actually screaming at me to get my face off the screen and head to the dining table, slap a book on the table and start doing some exercise especially my Additional Mathematics which is in the state of lost and pathetic to the extend that I actually got a one digit value for this result in my performance at school!

I was bewildered and worked my ass up to here, a double digit but not sustainable for a pass and its not even near the passing value. I feel so stupid but I'm going to be that damsel who gained conciousness about her priorities soon enough (actually I am already awake, just need a slap across the face for more waking moments)

So yeah, I guess that's enough bout my stupid little life, I mean, no , its not stupid, just very lost in its own pathetic way. So my mum's been getting in my face about what to do next? Actually it was pass all that, I've made up my mind on Mass Communication, but knowing that fickle mind of mine I'm having doubts in that field due to the numerous number of people in the batches that are to come and I wouldn't dare doubt that no one in my line of generation would stick clear of that course cause the pay is kinda good if you're a proffesional and its a fucking glamorous job I mean who in their right minds wouldn't want a glamorous job with status and everyday stilletoes? (thats for women, men is a whole different story)

But yeah, that is actually plan B , plan A was pilot, I mean why not?! I've got twenty twenty eyesight and I'm taking physics and I... Have a dad who's an ex in that line of occupation. Whats more? I'm crazy about fighter jets!

Guess I'll just have to think of plan C before I forget my priorities again

I was just thinking of a lame foundation programme called ADTP (American Degree Transfer Program)
I mean how cool is that?!

Ciao peeps, I'm going off for a nap before tuition blagh!

Hello my lovely bloggers and everyone out there who i doubt does not have at least ONE blog, dionne the damsel is back! Back to spill the beans on how the last few days/months/weeks/seconds/minutes/hours was completely live enthralling and changing .

So recently my friend with benefit (no, we pay for each others meal and insurance not do dirty stuff, naughty naughty you!) got a girl, yay for him but now he's ditching me in the gutter for the utmost priority in his life, gee thanks sweetie, guess i'll have to beg for alimony now , what the hell am i even talking about?! Well we all know that the main point here is my damn FWB ditched me.

Oh well, its not that I didn't do it when i was busy acquiring my newly broken up boyfriend. Hilarious i know! But since then (it was a very long time since he ditched me, pathetic much?) I've found a couple of 'new' people to mix with, okay that's just mean, let me straighten it, ...

RECENTLY : I have found new company to replace my old sweetheart and to forget the extra pains, so you see, they're made up of this people who i call the Golongan Cerdik which means the Elite Group in my school. From an unexplainably interesting background, these people suddenly became the light in my life in just 2 hours of yesterday nights agenda!

We had an English for Science and Technology class , and we were early, so we played along the perimeter of the pool , laughed , talked abit and I was known as 'Blondie' in that group for I'm not the so very smart one like them nor was I something of their minds (okay maybe a bit) I guess I can be called the Black Sheep in there but it was fun being in their company

And I thank them generously for saving me from the teachers shooting of questions towards me since I barely did my homework (figures why i wasnt part of the Elite Group doesn't it?)

So yeah, the part that came touching was when we took the ride back home together with one of the boys chauffeur ( I KNOW RIGHT?!)

One of them was actually telling me about his life and the rest (and me) were making so much noise and jokes that we suddenly sprang into a conversation of our crushes and past lovers, so we talked and talked and talked for what seemed like seconds when one of them were dropped of at his stop. Admitting like shit here, without him, it was pretty lost but we got back on track.

So then continued the conversation of crushes and lemonade's , that was just a joke, but yeah... so we talked until it was time for me to drop off.

It was so fun and it seems that the one boy who own the chauffeur has a sentimental essence that he wanted me included in this group where we remain friends for the rest of our life, so sweet right? I know! I was actually taken by surprise cause I thought guys think these stuff girly and way too mushy for their liking. It seems I was wrong to hold a judgement where every man thinks alike.

I always like these kind of pact things and now I actually have a pact with em'! I guess it was right of me to take up an extra subject for SPM after all , if not I wouldn't have met these wonderful creatures and delightful morons who adore my honest side , I am so very thankful

If one of ya'll reading these do take those mean things that i said bout ya'll as a compliment , after all , my nature of honesty erupts from my mean-ness side of my personality

Chio things up ahead!

OHEMGEE!! Its been such a long time since I posted anything on my blog. Recently just deleted one of my blogs which was connected with my Youtube account, ohmygawd~! I'm so bummed that i tweet about it alot and i mean alot! People are gonna get angry xD

About time to go soon. Having a history exam in like 12 minutes tops and had a great 20 minutes of early morning form 4 based chapters on Chemistry thanks to lovely Cik Shafeeqah. Will remove dead links soon and replace them with new links to follow :)

Lotsa loves to all the readers and blog walkers <3 muahs!

Well i guess from my title you can see that I'm trying to brag about my pretty (was long) hair. It's naturally straight and colored. Lots of unbelievable kids in my school just can't seem to accept the fact that my hair has it's natural recessive gene showing and that the color was from the sun shining so much on it.

When i was 12 , I had to wait for the transport under the blazing sun, and mind you, in those days, transport drivers are so damn lazy! They make us wait hella long and I was 12 for chrissake! Yep! just like anybody else who has to wait under the sun and carry a goddamned heavy school bag! So many exclamation marks , hahahahaha~ i wonder what so funny?

Anyway, yeah~

Today is the start of school after a one week break from Chinese New Year~! Such a nice but unfortunately tiring week yet spent with so much love and of course food! Happy happy~

Woahhhh~~~ it's been such a long time since I've been updating my blog. Everyone's blog that I added to on my page either expired, can't be access or the URL's all been changed O.O All my problems are well off over other than the coming one's and next year's deadly challenging Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia. SPM in short (pretty obvious based on the first initials O.o)

I swore on October that I'd hit my books when November starts and guess what? It's already December and every chapter of every subject is still a blur. I'm even thinking of dropping Add Math by ungoing on the day but my conscience tells me it's worth a try even if there's this huge ugleh G on my slip =.=

Recently I've taken up many favorite past times and all are based on art and colors. I've also been trying *BEEP* hard to grow thin by doing the routine sit ups, weekend morning stroll's or jog's and still my weight's been dragging me from social activities. Ouch, yep! I totally agree with no arguments. Sad though I still can't seem to accept myself or even love myself.

One thing I live on my motto? I live to eat. Sad~~~~ Life is having a hard time giving me happiness though I feel it everywhere in my skin since it's the holidays and it's December which means Jesus and Santa which also meant presents, parties , smiles and the best of all FOOD!!!!

:P don't look at me like that, I may complain hell alot about my weight but food's my salvation , well that's bad.

BTW which meant by the way (lawls as if you lot don't already know that) Gon' get more nail polish for my art works and if there are anyone here that would wanna snail mail me a present you'd know what to get for me xDD well you can get fake nails too, i need to parade my designs. My mum says once I'm done with my SPM , in that spare three months , my dad's gon' loan me his car (yes I have to pay for everything I want, nothing comes free :C) and I'm gonna be driving in town looking for a job in a nail parlour :D

I'd post all the pictures of what I did with my nail but I'm so freaking lazy to upload them :'( when I'm totally free, await those petty pictures (yes I like putting myself down, one of my most annoying detail bout me xDD)

Muaxoxo
Dosvidaniya blog lovers, know that I love ya' <3

There's alot of kids in my school who think they're adults. They do things which alot of people would envy with their partners and think that they have no dignity at all.

They pretty much kiss at the stairs or anywhere obvious and they seem to think they're invincible or that they have mutant cells that whenever their lips touch, the world can't see them. I find it irritating because honestly yeah, i did that but not in front of everyone's eyes or under their noses. Please la, who cares if you couple with that douche bag? or that lame nerd? I for one don't give a shit and it breaks my heart to see good girls choosing wrong guys ...

It's definitely not my decision to decide for them who they should be with and naturally love is blind but it seems that they're wasting their time with some shit-hole brained ass that isn't all that good of a person and everyone knows that. They should totally go for a counseling aid adviser on just-starters or get the learning to love for Idiots guide book.

I don't get how they don't seem to find it shameless at all. And the worst part is , some were actually so smart to have do it and get a teacher catch them. ohmigawddddddd~~~~~ how old are you?! I can't believe some people around my age are still dumb and immature. They don't have any brains to think. It makes me feel like a disgrace because my generation are.

If they want to snog each other or fuck each other you guys can go get a fucking room la!!! Its freaking annoying okay?! Not only are you guys displaying bad examples to the primary kids (yeah, they come around our school o.o) but you are reminding the broken about what they lost!

It's bloody irresponsible. Stop this act and continue it in a secluded area outside of school!

Three words

GET A ROOM!

This is for all the broken hearts like me out there. Trust me, it's not the end. In fact, it's a beggining to learn to never fall for less than you deserve. Love is blind. You don't know what's next, let's just enjoy our life for now. Why waste it all for one pathetic person who doesn't treat you right?

Live it up! Just like Lee Dewyze see's it :D


TIPS!!!

1 . Watch TV , watching a mindless set of series of Grey's Anatomy or Glee or 90210 will get you up and rocking especially with all the break-up , back-up of all the hot-ass actors and actress's in the sitcom's. And you'll totally be like 'Jeez! they can break up and let go in a jiffy, I'll do just fine! :D'

2. Take a hike, do something to relax the tense muscles from curling up in one corner of a room to sob. Don't let some bitch/bastard who doesn't deserve you strip your healthy-ness :D . I suggest you get out of the house and stick with mother nature, some fresh breath of air will clear your mind and bring you to understanding that you have more than that person in life to lavish about . And a plus point, exercising releases a happy hormone called endorphin. Use it :)

3. Read a book, or do something to divert your focus of that person to something else. Do not let him/her cloud your memory. Remember, you have your priorities and just cause she/he does not love you, that doesn't mean nobody does :D

4. Indulge in doing things that you like, No! Do not do things that the both of you did together! Do something you enjoy doing with yourself or your friends and family. It'll make you go like ----> :DDD the whole day. Don't spoil that by going home after by reading all the past love letter's or email's. You may just put that in the junkbox .

5. Get out and be with the people who loves you, yes! You effing need this, nothing is better than going out to smile with others who will smile with you right? And a plus one on this, they will comfort you and probably try to prick that ex of yours in a funny way :D

6. Listen to music, you may listen to rock songs or songs which help pull your confidence up or just something soft and melodious . At this time , listening to what the person is saying is good , like Move Along by American Rejects or So What by P!NK. Heck yeah they are old songs, but to me it never get olds :D

7. Talk to somebody who makes you laugh, have a chat-time with them and just laugh till your jaw drops. There's no shame in enjoying a quiet life.

8. Indulge in sugary food, (WARNING not too much! and I know your checking out that big piece of chocolate cake in the pastry shop xD) . This is a good time to enjoy yourself in fattening food, high in calories and carbohydrates. Eat a moderate amount and be happy that you got this chance.

9. Look through happy quotes on blog sites, yes, it might seem cheesy but I broke down once I saw an image which says something like 'I'll pull you up' and it showed a picture of a boy falling of a cliff looking lost when in another sector, a few of his friends were pulling him up. And whats the best part? He was smiling and so was I :)

10. Last but not least, wear a smile everyday, no matter how hard, don't make others around you get worried. Don't give em' the 48 inches face. It's your problem, don't drag people in. They're just there to lend a hand. Help them make you feel better by smiling with them :)